Disappointed

Disappointed in me, disappointed in me, disappointed in me, they’re always disappointed

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I used to look to my future with bated breath, see a psychiatiric unit, jail or death

I was scared of the headhouse, not the other two, I could’ve coped with jail, death?

I wouldn’t have to. You as a kid don’t get no control , you can end up on a road you don’t wanna go, For the sake & the luv & the loyalty of fam, I used to look in the mirror think “That aint who I am” Damn my life an the struggle with the pain, I had the blood of another on my knuckles an the shame & I blamed myself for everything I’d become, but there were only bad choices & I had to choose one Don’t let me get a gun lord, I used to pray, if I pull the trigger on them, I’ll be blowin my own life away. Say what ya want but I tried real hard, not to end up a statistic playing the sympathy card.
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I know I’m not the best I’m not the prettiest, I’m not the cleverest Just Trying be the best that I can be
I know who I am, a work in progress alien
And they’ll always be someone disappointed in me.

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You can't please everybody all of the time or even half or a lil bit when it comes to mine You can shine, but theres nuthin, & the silence is golden, I aint gonna ask, don’t wanna be beholden & it will never be enough you could offer up ya soul and they’d still want it gift wrapped & delivered to the door & even more til you’ve nuthin & you’re down on ya knees & ya scratchin in the corners of ya brain for ways ta please til you leave yaself behind and you don know who you are, well hallo I’m Mama Chill & I’m aimin for tha stars,

I don’t want cars or money or fame,just to keep makin music coz its runnin thru my veins and the pain & the struggles do mean a thing but I ain't here to whinge, I’m just here to sing & lay it on down before ya let ya mouth go, it’s not what ya think its bout what I know
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& I know I’m not the best I’m not the prettiest, I’m not the cleverest just trying be the best that I can be I know who I am, a work in progress alien
And they’ll always be someone disappointed in me

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But that's alright coz I’m disappointed to, in other people & their attitude & all of the ones who try to fuck up my head, I wanna be a recluse & live out on the edge .Few are rarely satisfied, its drama personified, & I just want a simple life & a peaceful life.

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I know I’m not the best I’m not the prettiest, I’m not the cleverest just trying be the best that I can be
I know who I am, a work in progress alien
And they’ll always be someone…
& they'll always be someone…
They’ll always be someone disappointed in me
Disappointed in me, disappointed in me, disappointed in me, they’re always disappointed in me.

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